when i was really young,
i rmb myself crying all the time,
causing a big no no for my family members.
when i was really young,
my mum wanted to take pictures of my sister and i,
my sister can only sit somewhere close,
because if she touches me,
and if i cry,
it will create a big no no again.
when i was really young,
i rmb every birthday,
my mum will decorate the house and tgt we will take a photo.
when i was a little older,
i rmb my mum telling me to use chopsticks,
if there is lighting,
to switch off the television.
when i was a little older,
i rmb my neighbour asking me not to move,
as she is mopping the floor,
she was babysitting me.
when i was a little older,
i rmb myself carrying a big bag of candies,
it's children's day!
when i was a lot older,
i rmb myself not studying for psle,
i was reading my lao fu zi comics.
when i was a lot older,
i rmb myself taking a photo with a laughing man,
it was cool,
many started taking after me.
when i was a lot older,
my mum is still the one i depend on,
she is my stand,
always.
when i was older,
i know it was them tt make my sec sch life so cool,
who else other than dep, prang, dar, and, yile, lijuan, and the rest.
when i was older,
i know it's time to make decisions,
i went poly, and
into dxpd.
when i was older,
a chatterbox me,
went to tell kiera a lot a lot when i just get to know her.
when i was older,
the serious looking girl,
beth is the one i first met when we are in studio.
when i was older,
making choices,
i met leonard,
he is my choice and he will be.
when i was older,
i started my first job,
with my tiean tiean tiean.
when i am who i am now,
everything changes,
my working life ended,
my choice is still my choice,
my work is in a mess,
my life is still,
i am still depending on my mum,
how many can actually tell your mum about relationships,
and my mum asked me to cry it all out,
her warm hug touches my heart.
i rmb myself always sticking a note on her door,
to wake me up in the middle of the night,
and she did,
i rmb myself in a lost,
she will encourage me,
i rmb wanting to quit,
she said if it really terrible just quit.
never force us on studies,
never scold if we fail,
my mummy.
now i am at this cross road,
should i move on?
i know a lot of things take time,
i cant force my way out,
i just cannot give up,
i dont want to regret just like wat wc said,
it is so, a lost me, one who is at the breaking point,
if one day, i just hack everything and leave,
will it be better?
