well, so much to do, yet i am here again, after soooo long.

i seriously have to say that when there is plenty to do, and you know you cant get out of this shitty, the only thing you can do is to depend on yourself, not anyone else, and when they thought that the only thing i can do is to play games, you are WRONG!

because i do more, so i gain more, so the logic is there, just that i didnt do job that are just assigned to me, so i am PLAINLY STUPID!

please consider me as a human, not a robot or anything else.

i super hate to go to school now,

dragging my feet there, and i dont know how to face many many people.

i feel so fake, i know i hate it becos i have to go there and fake it again, but i still love my projects,

because it is all happening the way i wanted it to be, just a little slow.

do you know how sad it is to go to school alone, to be squeezed by others, and you know you cannot cry for him, because you just cant, because no matter what you have to stand strong,

i hate it because now i can only grief for my own mistakes, and over and over again.

and do you remember those chitchats we have during journeys.

because i know someone will not be here, so jolly well talk about it.

because i, my jealousy works up so often, so trust started to struggle btw.

so i can only be angry with myself.

and what is this man, i am not even living like who i am before.

guy, got to be strong, got to learn and fight all odds.

since i am still here, i shall not waste my time, i dont want to regret and bring it to my grave,

so before i die, before everyone starts to forget me, before we are all heartbroken,

let's stand side by side for one another, and many times, i am very thankful that i always have someone to tell, someone to encourage, someone to hug, someone to kiss,

i am very super thankful la. thankyou kids, girls and nerds.

because when you know everything is going to fall apart, you are glad that you are still holding it no matter what, so that's what i should be happy for.