you are not supposed to mean this much to me,
i thought with a closed heart, i was being mean.
i used to believed, no, it wasnt you.
i used to want you as a friend.
and when you did one small little thing,
though it's small,
but it fits just right in my heart,
i knew it was only one.
but opening my heart,
i know i am going to give you one chance,
to break me.
and yes, i am broken.
have you ever realise, how much, you meant to me.
and when you decided to cut off all ties.
did you ever think about me.
i know, your heartless, was not meant to be, you just wanted me to forget everything about you.
but did you forget about me? Dont tell me you dont know.
i wished i could say, like we never loved at all.
but you know, you melted my feelings.
i cannot go any further without you.
now, i hope i can end studies really fast,
i can leave this piece of memory,
in the deep blue sea,
let my tears follow them,
let my eyes closed for nobody.
if i say i can write, but nobody is reading it.
i think it's alright, as long as you know,
i am not blaming, i am not crying,
i am just not leaving the past,
i just cant open up for anyone else,
i still dont understand why we cant be together again.
dont blame me for writing all these, be it my friends or nobody.
let me be, at this point, i feel lonely, when heart sinks,
it's me.
believe that i can walk out, be it distances or miles.
be it day or night,
be it love or crush.
