as promised, i give it a double hug.
i thought it will be different,
yes it is,
so much of differences,
i remember,
today of last year,
i was swearing and cursing why do you have to have camp,
on your birthday,
even blaming you for going to that npcc camp.

today, it marks one year,
and i am no longer with you.

i wonder if you care, whether it's today or yesterday.
i wonder it makes any differences,
whether it's her or me.

today you have her next to you,
do you see me, right behind?

waiting for one day, if you turn and give a damn look,
i will smile to you and say, go on, you will be happy.

tell me you are one million times happy,
tell me you are never alone,
tell me if you still care when i texted you,
tell me how many more sorry you have to say,
every time,
i really dont want to hear any sorry from you,
even on your birthday,
dont say sorry to me anymore.

two years,
two f.years, you said sorry to me.

stop it leonard,
it has been too manysorry till i never got a chance to hear anything good from you.

if between us is sorry, i rather be away.

but still happy birthday to you.

if you ever come over here again,
i just want you to know,
i am sometimes happy waking up without you in my mind,
i am day by day forgetting a little about you,
but it doesnt mean i completely dig you out of my heart,
it's just, i can live, i can move and i can dance without you.
but, i am still lonely.

you left me there, i stand up already, though a little shaky,
but i'm doing well,
you can smile without me,
and i'll learn too,
that;s a mutual thing.